Tonight my heart is torn out and bleeding. One of my sons committed suicide tonight. I know he felt he had a good reason but he didn’t. He left four little boys that desperately need their dad and a woman who loved him wholeheartedly. Also a Mom who just wants her son back. My life has been forever changed and one of this world’s finest men is gone. I can’t understand it and I’m too heartbroken to be rational. I don’t know if I can post for awhile, or I might need it. My Sean was an exceptional man with so much integrity and love for his family. I just can’t understand giving up when things are tough. Thoughts and prayers would be much appreciated.
I know you’re thinking this is an art blog and you’re right. But I had a real need to express something about KD’s decision to leave the Thunder for Golden State. First off, I’m pretty sure the whole state is feeling betrayed as am I. If this were a business decision and not just about a ring I could understand. I’m looking at it from a fan’s perspective and I know he made the decision he thought was best for him.
That said, I want to ask how meaningful that ring will be to him stepping into a team that has a full rich roster and everything spoon fed. A ring in OKC would be a triumph, ring in the bay… Who cares? Not a single person in this state! I hope he’ll happy in his perfect little world. I never thought OKC would boo KD but I guarantee his first game here will be unpleasant. Nothing hurts more than betrayal and this fan is betrayed. Lucky for me, I’m a big fan of Mr. Triple double, Russell Westbrook. Without KD and Serge Ibaka it’s Russell’s Team all the way. I already know KD is irreplaceable but if anyone can pull this together, it’s Russ. I don’t know what this season will bring but this state, people and team will survive and flourish as we always do. Don’t let the door hit you on the way out KD, Golden State already had it’s stars, I guess you’ll just be one of the pack. Not being THE star might be harder than you expect. Too bad, this could’ve been the year for us.
Rant over. Disappointment continues.
Today was both a great day and it was hell. I had to/got to leave the house and see a new pain management doctor and it was terrible! However, it meant one of my boys (read man 😉 ) and his family hauled me all over then took me to dinner at OKC’s Hideaway Pizza! Since I rarely get to leave the house and never get out to eat, my sweet Keanu and his fiance Shai and their boys Karson and Kohen took me out to eat and shenanigans ensued! Those kids are so cute and sweet! They are my reason to smile today!
Unfortunately, I had to see the new doctor. Of course, I didn’t see a doctor I saw a PA. I expected the obligatory urine test what I didn’t expect was to be TIMED! If I could not go in 5 minutes my appointment would be canceled and I’d be rescheduled! Seriously? I was there more than 3 hours, they did 8 X-rays (proving my spinal issues) but then refused to prescribe anything until another month and another appointment! This is a pill mill and not a single person there acted as if they cared. And, after my 3 hours of sitting in pain I left with tears of pain streaming down my face and nothing to show for the pain and humiliation of being treated like a drug addict. I don’t know what I’m going to do. What have we come to when chronic pain sufferers have NO other options than to be treated this way. Yeah, I’m really frustrated and angry.
Hello all, just wanted to let everyone know that this blog is brand new and I’ve never done this before. I’m trying to get my pertinent content up and correctly configured as soon as possible. I’m still figuring out linking and Pages and menus so I beg your indulgence as I work to get things set up and learn enough to make the buttons do what they should. Thanks! Also, I figured out where the ® button was on my android yesterday! It wasn’t, I had to download the SwiftKey keyboard… I don’t think it learns very quickly. (big smile!) but I’m trying to give it a fair chance.
Thanks for listening!
My name is Cyndee Pelley, I’m an amateur artist with a spinal disability and this blog allows me to share my art, tangle patterns and coloring ideas. I’m also bound to touch on dogs and horses as well as family because they’re a big part of my life. My hands shake so my lines aren’t perfect but I’ve found expressing myself through art extremely important in maintaining a healthy perspective when my body is trapped in a bed. Family, pets, art and health are all topics that will arise but mostly this is about art.
One of the most significant things to happen to me in the last 15 years was when I accidentally came across the Zentangle(registered trademark) Method created by Rick Roberts and Maria Thomas. Instead of trying to explain their method let me quote from their official website Zentangle.com.
“The Zentangle Method is an easy-to-learn, relaxing, and fun way to create beautiful images by drawing structured patterns.
Almost anyone can use it to create beautiful images. It increases focus and creativity, provides artistic satisfaction along with an increased sense of personal well being. The Zentangle Method is enjoyed all over this world across a wide range of skills, interests and ages.
We believe that life is an art form and that our Zentangle Method is an elegant metaphor for deliberate artistry in life. ” (quote from the Zentagle.com website)
These are some examples of simple patterns and what you can do with them.
I will be talking more about this method in later blogs but for now I’ll just say that Zentangle has changed my life. I’d encourage anyone who wants to draw but doesn’t know where to start to visit Rick and Maria’s site Zentagle.com. I also highly recommend tanglepatterns.com which is Linda Farmer’s collection of tangles including Rick and Maria’s official tangle patterns.
I will also be chronicling my application process for a mobility service dog. I’ve always loved animals and in particular horses and dogs. I just lost one of my rescued dogs (Daisy) after 15 years.
My Daisy Mae (passed in April, 2016)
Her long time companion, Chance, is fading fast though I’m hopeful he will last the year.
I also have a foster dog from a local rescue agency. His name is Jake and he mostly likes to hide from the world.
The rules regarding service dogs in the home are usually that no other dogs are allowed to be present in the home. The reason for this is service dogs are working dogs and can get distracted which works against their training. Having a service dog is a commitment to ongoing training and special care. I have made my application to an organization based in Norman, OK called “A New Leash on Life”. http://newleashinc.org/ They take donated puppies (usually Golden or Labrador Retrievers for their natural retrieving abilities) and train them for the specific needs of each client. This takes between 1 and 2 years because the pups need to be fully grown to support the pulling, balancing and other activities a mobility dog must handle. So, I applied after Daisy’s death making me both sad and excited and guilty about the excited. Their letter to confirm my application was dated May 11, 2016. I’m trying to patiently wait for the next phase!
That’s enough for the first blog. I hope you’ll come back to see what kind of art we’ll be working each week. I also hope you’ll check out the 3 tangle patterns I’ve deconstructed. I’ve sent them to Linda Farmer, CZT at tanglepatterns.com to see if they conform to the tangle rules and can then be published there. Either way, feel free to experiment and share your thoughts and comments.